May 9, 2006

And again...

It should not matter, but it does.
I should just let go, but it's so hard to do so.
It's not going to turn into something fruitful anyway, I should just move on.
But why is it so difficult to forget?
Granted there were shared times that were so meaningful.
Time and again history repeats itself. Have I not learnt anything?
It's not going anywhere, it should end.
Mayhaps, it's already ended, only I refuse to acknowledge the truth.
Lord... the pain. The pain is endless. For now.
Picking up the pieces. Shattered by my own doing. My own choices.
One question remains... Why lie?

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Right about now you must be feeling lousy. You cant think straight let alone decide what to have for breakfast. Or the feeling is so baaaddd, you might not want to eat at all. Whatever the 'thing' that is bugging you just refused to leave. Its been circulating in your system like some alien invaders multiplying every second. It has sucessfully invaded your nervous system, paralyzing your limbs and heart. Your brains, or whats left of it, is clouded, unable to see thru things.

Simple task seems difficult. Simple instructions reads like a tractor maintenance manual.

Oh yeah, that stomach and its attached extension feels like its being twisted into knots that even confuses a scout master.

Lets not go into the appearance part. Even zombies are pale in comparison.

You keep on wondering......why me? Why now? why bother with questions? The mind is about to go limp like everything else. If you're a stud somewhere in the country-side, they would shot you a long time ago.

yeah, i know that feeling. Funny thing is that, it wont go away that easily. Like you have this little merry-go-round in your head. The harder you try, the faster it spins.

Forget about the pills. Dont even think about you know what, it wont help.

Solution? Yes.......
Our Creator giveth and He taketh.
Seek and you shall find.
All the best

Anonymous said...

galing68, u're rite.. i guess, this is just a stage to go thru, one of those moments that will pass by..

we may not share the 'same' history sister, but,it's just that yeah, why lie? why the unnecessary insults.. (read;mean n heartless)

personally, couldn't be bothered, but tho the cut heals, the scars stays. hopefully (insyaAllah) it is for us to make a better outcome of situations. =)

take care, *hugs*

Anonymous said...

yeah!!.. why lie ? Liar !

Hajar said...

galing: your words, though long , (he he he) are always an ease to the mind. thanks!

fatihah: every ascend always followed by descend. vice versa. how we climb and go down is up to us.