The haze was horrible yesterday. I stood at balcony, and I was standing in the haze. The air felt oily and sticky. I washed my face several times. The late night shower did nothing to lessen the temperature. Shutting the sliding door only made the hall stuffier. The air was stagnant. Pungent. Opening the sliding door did not clear the air. It was hot, hot night.
The sun was a still orange ball at about 6 pm. Even the Telekom building was barely visible. KL and Genting Highlands was nowhere to be seen. The panaromic condo on top of the hill was a sillhoutte. I could feel my lungs working harder than usual. The aveolus could not filter all the poison. My red blood cells must be crying. Hopefully my white army with its snipers are sharp and strong enough to fight.
Last night, I watched a bit of Mencari Cinta. And I thought, have our society finally being reduced to such idiotic commercial value? It's just so sad. Who are the real idiots? The producers and the TV channel? The sponsors? The participants? The family members involved? Or... the audience? They can say whatever they want to say. This is a way to show the true values of our culture and religion. Puh-leassseeee... Like duhhhh.
Love cannot be sold. Or bought. Or commercialised. Or is it that in this modernised world, love has at last be one of the products for public amusement? How they ridicule its power and true meaning. Love eventually becomes a joke. Call me a romantic. Call me a hypocrite. Call me idealistic. But to me, there are some things that we should respect and put on high pedestals. Love be amongst them. I shan't say more. Go figure.
Moving on, the weather is much clearer today. Thanks to the early morning rain. I even drove with the windows opened this morning. I like the scent of rain. I love the smell of the air. Fresh and alive. The sky is bluer, trees are greener. But once I came down from the hill, the thicker air starts to clog my nostrils. So, I wound up the windows again. I could only enjoy cleaner air for about 5 minutes. But I guess, that's better than nothing.
I like to stand at the balcony on a no-so-hot day. Looking diagonally to the right, I saw the traffic heading to the town. I could even see the sun reflected on the windshield. Blinding at times. A little to the left, especially at night, Genting Highlands is a festival of lights. Stood majestically on top of the hill, commanding attention from the peasants below. And wishing a quick getaway, leaving the worries on unfinished tasks at work. Straight ahead is the higher ground. Palace for the kings. With panaromic view. I'm sure they enjoy more scenic skyline than I could.
There's something to be said about sitting quietly, watching the world around you. You see birds flying by, feel the breeze sweeping away, watch the children jumping into the pool, listening to their shouts and laughter. Sneak a peek to that balcony from the corner of your eye where a couple is standing side-by-side, sharing a laugh, and stolen kisses. Not to mention those few incidents where you can hear the neighbours quarelling. Throwing out stuff from the window. It's a sight. Hillarious. Scary too. That's watching life.
And then, it made me ask myself. Is this what life is really about? You have moments of pleasure. Then you go through the pains. The cycle of life. Ups and downs. Love and anger. Laughter and tears. Stephen Covey says that 80% of what happened in our life is within our control. It is the result on how we choose to react when something happen to us.
I believe in starting my day with a smile. That is why I get a little miffed when someone or something mess with my morning. But, referring to Mr Covey's idea, it's up to me to be miffed or not in the first place. Habits are difficult to change. So, it takes hard work and time. As long as we do our best to change the not-so-good things, we will be better than before. Don't you think so?
It is true that I have a positive outlook at life in general. It is not always good. Neither it is always easy. When you have so much negative vibes around you, it's difficult to stay optimistic all the time. So, it's a war of aura. Whose aura is much stronger? It gets better and more powerful when you have friends with the same view and feeling on the matter. Than you could win the battle. At times, I lost. But that's okay, because if we win all the time, that's not good either. We might forget that we're after all, humans.
Nowadays I don't complain too much. And I am far from being judgemental. I leave that to the one who has the final say. He who is the Most Merciful. He who is the owner of us. I feel that, each person has their own way in living their life. It might not suit us, it might be wrong. But who are we to say that it's not right for the other person? We don't live their lives as they don't do ours. So, leave the judgement to Him. We can advise and voice our opinions. But there it ends.
And today, I shall smile all day.
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