an act of faith

can everything be blamed on fate?

i should think not. we are given choices. we are blessed with 'akal'. that should aid us in making the... right decisions. but who's to say what IS right? it might be wrong to us, but correct for others.

in making choices between doing what's right and what makes you happy, which would be yours? because what's right does not necessarily means you're happy. most often than not, you're not happy. well, in the long run you might be happy. same goes with choosing what makes you happy. you might be deliriously dandy now, but drown in abysmal misery in two months time.

i do not know why i'm writing this. i just need to let things out from my chest. thoughts that are trapped inside. hmm.. can thoughts be trapped in the chest? it should be feelings, right? maybe because the thoughts and feelings are 'rojak'ed together...

there are lots of things that i wanna do. and yet i'm forced to admit that i couldn't. at least, i hope, only for now. travelling abroad, for one. :-) yeah.. yeah.. i know most people have the same intentions. but i rejoice by reading blogs. (technology is just beautiful, ain't it?). these lovely people who have the opportunities to be there for whatever reasons (kak teh, you know i meant you.. hehehe..), blog every now and then, and tell us their stories. it's as if experiencing it first hand. and for this i'm really thankful for the internet.

so for now, i'll be contented with what other people are experiencing. maybe one day, i can blog my own. being in foreign land and NOT loving it as much as i thought i would. :-P

for today, just let me retreat to my secluded redoubt. and reflect on my acts yesterday and the day before. and plan what i should do next. hehe.. i think most likely it'll be the same... enjoy your week ahead everyone. every second of it...