So Long Brilliant Woman!

I do not know her personally. Like many others, I know her through her films and adverts. Not to mention those numerous slanders and rumours that circled around from time to time. But I never stopped waiting and watching for her next magical moments.

Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad. Such a loss to the Malaysian arts industry. Such a huge loss. I do not know her personally, although it was my secret wish to do so. This is one wish that will not come true...

I wonder, why is it so difficult for people to open up their minds and hearts to accept differences? Why is it so terrible when someone dare to defy the norm other seem to be blanketed with? Why when someone has the courage to speak up and challenge the ordinary, the person becomes a target of hatred and vile rumours? Such is the society we live in. Such is the people we grew up with.

I solemnly hope that more people will see the true message that Yasmin Ahmad dared to reveal in her works. And like many others before her, maybe now, she will be acknowledged by her people, after her death.

Al-Fatihah.

Excuse Me, I'm Freaking Out.

I'm officially freaked out.

It's like... Just a little more than four months to go...

There are still so many things to do.

We have not confirmed the caterer. Although we kinda booked them.

I have not finished buying the hantaran stuff.

The wedding favours have not been confirmed. How they should look like also have not been confirmed.

Clothes for the event on the other side have not been confirmed. We've not picked anything yet.

The invitation. We have not done anything yet.

I'm doing the bunga pahar myself, with the help of Mel, of course. But, I don't know if I can concentrate or have time to do it!

The dais at home, I have the design, but I have not started buying anything. I need to order the metal frame, that has not been done.

So many things to do, yet so little time. My parents are also busy with my brother's wedding that mine is sort of being put aside. :-(

When I freaked out or feel sad about something concerning the wedding, I've got no one to talk to. Sometimes I bug Momster. Like what I just did, just now. Told her I'm freaking out. She laughed. In fact, she ROTFL. In the messenger of course.

I still have not packed my stuff at the rented place. I plan to move out by mid-August. Just before Ramadhan starts. And my housemate who happens to be (supposed to be?) my best friend seem doesn't care about me anymore. She didn't ask anything about the preps or if she can help with anything. At all. :-(

Lastly, I still have not decided who's going to be my maid of honour. But I did talk about it with CapalPerak. Maybe I'll ask his best friend's girlfriend. At least she asks how my preparations are going...

I'm still freaking out.

Morning After

Spain, Canary islands, Tenerife, trees emerging from clouds

I should never forget that God test me with sadness and heartaches just so that I remember him. And I should never forget that after the tests come the blessings and happiness that He has in store for. I believe that He has bigger plans for me. And I believe that for every sadness, my reward will be greater. Hasn't He proven His plans for me before? Many times over, in fact. So, why oh why must it slipped my mind every time something happens that hurt my feelings? Why must it be only the day after that I remember, and not the moment it happens?

I submit to You, Allah, for only You know what's best for me.

The Greeting Cards

I'm sorry, but whose idea was it to invite a thousand people to a wedding? Who started this? Why should we invite people we have not seen for years? Some of which we hardly know!

A small scale wedding means a close-knit, more personal and intimate get-together. It also means a more well.. luxurious in a way, because you get to spend a little bit more because the number of guests are smaller. I would actually be happier with a small scale occasion, shared only with my family members and a few close friends.

However, this can never happen in a Malaysian weddings. We are all about sharing the joy and celebration with everyone. This is exactly what I told an acquaintance when she asked why do you need to invite so many people to a wedding the other night. In fact, a wedding is such a great fete, that it should be announced to the world! And because there are so many people at the wedding, we have to ask our family members to wear a certain colour so that we know who belongs to the family! Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating, but you get the point I'm trying to make here.

Have you been to a invitation card store lately? Do you know that a minimum order that is acceptable to get discounted price is actually 1000 pieces? That means, you are expecting at least a couple of thousands guests! I told them they're crazy. We're just normal people, who are we going to invite? Sure there's discount for 500 cards too, but it's not as cheap as you might want it to be. And you know what, I heard, some people, they just ordered those thousand pieces of cards and only used about half, just because they want to get the discounted price! What are you going to do with the rest of the unused cards? Crazy isn't it?

A lot of people these days, travel to Indonesia to get cheaper invitation cards and other frills for the wedding. Some even tailor their clothing there. Not too long ago, people in KL travel to northern or east Malaysia to get cheaper bargains.

While I see there's nothing wrong with it, I myself, will not go into that extend. Simply because, I've never been to Indonesia, therefore I don't know my way around and I don't know anyone there to help me to get these bargains. I might get cheated you see? And on top of that, there are other things to be thought about; annual leaves, flight tickets, accommodation, food, etc. I don't know, I have a feeling I might end up paying the same amount if I were to buy everything here in KL! I might be wrong, because I've never been there...

As far as invitation goes, my list almost reaches a hundred people. Times two, that's about two hundred. Combined with the lists from my parents and CapalPerak, we're expecting about a thousand people. Maybe more.

And even though I said that I'd be happier with a smaller group, the possibilities to meet up with those people you have not met for so long just makes me smile. It would be nice to see those people again, wouldn't it?

Pasal Hantaran

Nak kahwin nih... banyak dugaan beb! Macam aku nih, kira syukurlah tak der dugaan dari segi relationhip ngan CapalPerak, tapi dugaan datang dari sumber berbeza. Ahahaha... Salah satu nyer ialah cobaan apabila membuat preparation hantaran.

Lagi banyak aku tengok style orang sekarang buat hantaran, lagi terkedu aku. Gila! Melampau betul extra-baganzak dia!! No wonder lah kalau diorang tempah hantaran, satu dulang dah makan sampai 40 hinggit (at least!)! So ari tu memula aku nak buat kaler silver-blue. Ni untuk kasi pada CapalPerak ler. Sekali tuh, adik aku yang nak kawin bulan 9 ni pilih warna yang sama. Mula2, aku macam tak kisah, tapi lepas tuh, malas ler... Tak besh!

So, aku sudah decide masa kuar ngan Mel last month untuk buat kaler lain. Buat masa ni, aku plan nak buat merah-hitam. Hmmm... Tadi SkyAngel kata kaler tu gelap. So aku punya reply yang agak kurang sopan: "Sukati aku la nak buat kaler aper... Janji aku suka, dia suka." Ha ha ha...


Sebenarnya, lagi kita dengar pendapat orang, lagi pening kepala jadi nya. Maka dengan itu, buatlah decision sendiri dan jangan ikut rentak orang lain. Maka, insyaAllah, selamat la hendaknya.

Sekarang ni aku punyer quest adalah untuk make sure habah-habah (makna ingrish dia ialah "frills") yang akan digunakan mestilah tidak melampaui batas dan mahal-mahal. Ingat Jade: Simple and Nice. He he he... Aku mesti sentiasa ingat-ingatkan diri ini. Tapi rupa-rupanya, simple and nice ni lah yang boleh jadi lagi mahal! Pening!

Tak per, malam nih... ICE AGE 3!!!!