I received a very good news today. My "person" is getting married insyaAllah in January. I am so deliriously happy for her. Here's to many, many years of laughter and joy for both of you; Sharky and Dique. I am yet to be supplied with the juicy details, waiting for Sharky to call. Hmm... she might have forgotten... Anyway, best of luck to them and I, for one, can't wait for the glorious day (mcm aku plak yang nak menikah.. ha ha ha).
Last Thursday evening, I hurt my back muscle. I was lying down on my couch, minding my own business, watching Spongebob and Patrick. As I was turning to my right, I heard my back cracked. Knowing that familiar sound and the muscle pull I know what happened was definitely not right. But I still went to the gym for my line dancing. After the class, I tried to run on the treadmill, foolishly hoping that I was wrong and I was actually perfectly okay. It did not go well. As I started to increase the speed and slowly started to run, I feel the bump too much and almost screamed.
On Friday morning, I walked like a pregnant woman around the office. So yesterday, Mak insisted to go for "body service" with Cik Yati in Cheras. Haih... That was the first time in my life that I cringed and cursed inwardly out of pain. Out loud of course the Lord's name graced my lips. He he he... I feel better today, though I was reminded that I need to come again next week for the full three-hour session. Haih.
As good news go by today, another step was taken this morning for the reality in September. I hope everything goes well. A little sad to let go but still excited to get something new.
Owh... another happy thingy... I noticed last Saturday that certain "reminders from the past" has been removed from his Knight Rider. :-)
Still waiting for Sharky to call. Hmm... Looks like I've got to plan the trip up north again soon. Well, I know it's three months away, but still! You know, baju, accomodation, baju, transportation, baju. He he he...
I cannot lie From you I can not hide I'm losing will to try Can't hide it Can't fight it
So go on, go on Come on leave me breathless Tempt me, tease me 'Till I can't deny this Loving feeling Let me long for your kiss Go on, go on Yeah come on
Last Monday, I was on my way to the gym. The traffic light was red and I was almost late for my yoga class. As I waited for the light to turn green, I observed the people around me. My head stopped turning when I looked to my right to see a man, probably in his early 30s, sitting at the driver's seat in his new grey Camry. The fingers on his left hand are busy moving upwards from his neck to his chin. In fast motion. At first I thought he has this nervous habit where you move part of your body when you're thinking. Then suddenly he looked into his rear view mirror and his right fore finger was tapping on his brow bone, on his forehead. It suddenly downed to me that he was doing a quick face lift!
Vanity is not limited to women these days. With the new era where men are also being concerned how they look, which colour to wear, women have difficulty to differentiate which of them are straight which are not. While we like our men to take care of their hygiene better, we cannot have them having smoother skin or silkier hair. That would be just wrong, eh?
Sometimes, going to the gym is a challenge to your self esteem. Do the men look at you because they find you desirable with your curves and all or do they think "ohmigoat!!". You can't help notice people looking at you as you stand at the counter having your drink, or as you walk from the treadmill to the stepper machine, or as you walk across the vast place towards the studio or just heading to the locker room or heading home. You can feel eyes following your every move.
Taking that as a challenge every time, I work out even harder. I know I can lose weight easily and get the "correct" curves as long as I disciplined myself. I can eat anything, so long as I don't get lazy to move my big @$$. He he he... And being diligent for the past two weeks have started to pay off. My pants starting to get looser now. Isn't that just great?
Anyway, I'm babbling. Next weekend the family is going to Tronoh, my second brother's convocation. I was informed by him that his girlfriend will be "parked" with me so she "won't get bored". Being the great big sis that I am, I agreed. But alamak! She's the goody goody type, and I'm just a nut case!
The following week, if everything goes as plan, another step to the reality in September will be taken. InsyaAllah. And then, that holiday weekend, I will be on duty at PWTC for the 50th Merdeka Day expo. Let's see who I can rub shoulders with this time. And I'm keeping my beloved Cik Putih close to me all the time!
I went to Putrajaya yesterday. I just love the greens and reds and yellows around the building that I went. As I stood by the huge window looking outside towards the Masjeed and the Palace, I took in the beautiful sight and wished for a moment that I was in one of those room; sitting at the desk, taking several minutes break from the huge workload. Then I remembered, they don't have that much to do, eh? He he he...
To DNAS, Queen and Alien, they would know which building I am describing. Because we spent a lot of time over there when we were in Excebix. Queen and Alien are still there, reaping rewards, I suppose. He he he... I'm babbling again.
I am a simple girl. My wants are simple. My expectations are simple. I live a simple life.
Having said that, I am not without my own share of idiosyncrasies. For example, I use different ways to go to the same destination (I heard it could increase my creativity). I flush before I use the public toilet, regardless the cleanliness. I rinse the soap off the pipe knob after washing my hands. I wipe the cutleries (with serviette) I'm about to use wherever I go; be it a mamak stall or a 5-star restaurant.
And although knowing some things are just natural order of living, just norm in our daily lives, I expect miracles to happen and I will get something extra-ordinary. However much skeptical (or jaded) I am towards relationships, I still wish for fairytale story. Yes, I'm gullible that way.
So, this morning, when he said he'd come and pick me up at around eleven, I expected it to be between 10:45 am to 11:15 am. And when I called at 11:20, he wasn't even ready to go out, I felt disappointed. Not with him, but with myself, because my theory was proven again. You know, the fact that men are only intense and excited to impress when it was during the chasing period. Once the chasing is over, the excitement just slowly diminishes. (The fact that he had good reason for not realising the time, did not cross my mind at that moment. He he he...)
Anyway, he did apologise and said to me something about not being a prince but I will always be his princess (LINE!!!). In that case Her Royal Highness expects to be treated better, eh..?
Frankly, I know I'm kinda giving him a little hard time... The fact that I'm not easily convinced when it comes to relationship, doesn't help. He sorta have to prove to me that he's different from my exes. Not that I'm comparing, it's just those things in life right, when you get stung too many times, you would just stay clear of any hives.
Watching the rerun of Heroes where Nathan and Niki were getting it going, I mentioned to him; quoting Nathan who said that he's happily married; how even happily married man could still stray. And he said that it goes both ways and could also happen to a married woman, which he promptly pointed out the cop's wife who had an affair with her husband's friend (I forgot their names). Which I replied by pointing out that he strayed because his wife was on wheel chair, while she had an affair because their having marriage troubles. (But, oiiii! This is not me condoning affairs just because you have relationship troubles, eh....)
So, tell me.
Relationship needs hard work. It also need trust. I guess I have to work on that believing part. Positive vibes, Jade, positive vibes...
Anyway, on the lighter side, I went to another dealer today, and compared the packages offered. I guess, I'll stick to the first one. Much better. Hopefully by end of September, another reality...
The songs I listened to this morning. One while having breakfast. The other while driving.
Sometimes you ask yourself... Should I? Will I? Can I?
Making your way in the world today takes everything you've got. Taking a break from all your worries, sure would help a lot. Wouldn't you like to get away?
Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name, and they're always glad you came. You wanna be where you can see, our troubles are all the same You wanna be where everybody knows your name.
You wanna go where people know, people are all the same, You wanna go where everybody knows your name.
-- Cheers --
You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your fault
You are the bearer of unconditional things You held your breath and the door for me Thanks for your patience
- Alanis Morrisette: Head Over Feet -
Picture it in red... or black. Haih... Salivating... Soon, baby. Soon.
Success is relative. Wealth is relative. Happiness is relative too. So, if some people seems to be having it all, that does not mean they feel the same way.
Anyway, I guess, if I am disciplined enough for the next six months, my relativity will be changing and everything will turn the way I want them to be. InsyaAllah.
After contemplating and calculating, I decided to go for what I want finally. What is it, you asked? I shall tell you when it becomes a reality. Hopefully between these couple of months.
As latest news go by, I am unofficially single, but unavailable. He he he... Am I elated? As far as I can tell, both of my feet are still firmly on the ground. This is definitely different than the previous ones. Well, time will tell and hopefully everything will turn out all honey sweet with the occasional paprika dash.
Having said that, I'm giving myself time to adjust. And I'm giving the other person time to.. well.. remove certain things from his territory; reminders of the past. If he's reading this, then, he knows what I mean. He he he...
It's not that I'm feeling insecure, hey, I'm wayyyyyyy past being insecure. That is like so totally yesterday. It's just that I want us to start on a clean slate. I've sorta removed unnecessary complications and hurdles. There might be few more lurking around the corners, but they will soon be dealt with.
As far as happiness goes, I am... contented.
Hmm... it's a funny feeling actually writing these out. Feeling some little butterflies hastily flying here and there in my tummy.When was the last time I said I was not yet ready to step into the zone? Frankly, I still am not fully ready, but until you put both feet firm within the zone, you'll never know, eh? You will keep on asking the questions that cannot be answered unless you're inside the vicinity.
So, here's to me and him. May things work out. Ha ha ha...
p/s: We have not actually go out and celebrate this momentous bit. Hmm.. except for last night nasi ayam session in Bukit Bintang. Does that count?
